Perfect Timing!

So, I got home rather late this morning. It is not that I left work late, but that I decided to impulsively ask a coworker to join me for breakfast (late morning dinner for all of us who work night turn!). And, I am glad that I tend to be rather impulsive at times. I am learning that this is not always bad, and, more, that God seems to use some of these moments for His own work in my life...

More recently, I have found myself rather impatient with the adoptive process. There is a huge part of me that would like to somehow reach into it, reorder it, and set into motion events and time according to the picture I have. I have wondered, at times, if this 'wait' is going to be forever (mind you, we haven't been waiting all that long). I have also wondered about all the 'what ifs' that could speed this process up.

I mention breakfast with Charlene because I was reminded of 'waiting' and how God's work is made complete in His time. As we spoke of work, life, family, and learning, I was reminded of God's sovereignty and the freedom of choice that God gives to us. I was additionally reminded of how complicated it is to understand and explain, at times, how the two can be reconciled to one another. Although, there is one thing that I am most sure of and was encouraged in this morning...that is, the fact that while God does give me the freedom and power to make decisions within my life, not all decisions I choose to make will be the best...and that when the road seems unclear or when I 'feel' that it is more urgent to make a decision, it is usually time to slow down and 'wait' on evidence of God's leading and provision. Sooooooo, needless to say, I walked away from our conversation reminded that while I feel a sense of urgency to somehow take this process into my own hands and speed it up (and, I am sure there are a good many of you out there who can relate and have come up with a half dozen ways this could happen in your own wait), God is active in the wait and is far more clear on not just the outcome, but how we will arrive at that outcome. It is He that I return to in this journey, and it is He that I seek to sort out the finer details.

I am additionally thankful this morning for the adoptive community-family that we have. I am thankful for the encouragement, understanding, and care that we have experienced through fellowship with others on a journey like our own. So, in the spirit of perfect timing and in addition to breakfast with this friend, it was wonderful to come home to more words of encouragement. Thank you to those who have posted comments on this site, who have sent private messages, who have sent mail and quilt squares, or who have taken the time to comment through yahoo groups! Your love and care is felt deeply!~S.